Today

Today is dark and stormy
The clouds are rolling in
My nerves make me so squirmy
I’m crawling in my skin

I don’t know how much will get done
I cannot tell you anything at all
I don’t know if I’ll make it to the end of the week
I don’t know that I won’t fall

Today is cold and scary
Like every day before
But one little thing has changed
One bit of difference has crept into my core

Today is not so dark and stormy as the day that passed
Today the clouds are slower and
My nerves not quite so gassed

Today I got out of the bed
Unlike the other morn
Today I set foot on the floor
Turned off the sadly looping porn

This day is not a good one
It’s certainly not great
But it’s also not a horrible one
Overflowing with self-hate

And if I look hard enough
Though a heavy mist environs my head
I think I see a ray of sun
I think I feel my eyes being led

Led to a lighter spot in the sky
Where darkness penetrates not
Led to a warmer safe place
A good burn, but not too hot

I feel this little bit of something
Shall we call it hope
Taking apart my chest
Looking inside with a microscope
It’s leaving something behind, I know
I can feel the afterglow

It makes my feet feel lighter
And my lungs fill with fresh air
For one moment love is brighter
For one moment I am there

Today is dark and stormy
And the clouds are rolling in
But, Oh what rolled in with those clouds!
My hope came home again

Yesterday was bleak and I cannot find the words
Today is not an easy one but of one thing I am sure
Tomorrow will be better
Just the slightest little bit
Tomorrow there will be more light
I will have more spirit

I will get up with more gusto
I will set foot more heartily
I will not look at the days before
But let them gather dust behind me.